Sunday, December 19, 2010

Be Your Own Person

Wow, I haven't been on here in a long time. But I desperately need to get some thoughts out. So here it goes...

Have you ever felt like somebody was in your shadow? Like no matter what you do in your life, somebody is always a few steps behind you doing the exact same thing? Right now, that's how I'm feeling. I know it's stupid and may sound a little selfish, but I can't help it. It's one of my biggest pet peeves. When you have something going on in your life and somebody is always right there wanting the same thing -- even though they never once showed any desire for that dream -- and you felt like you can't say anything to them. 

I'm not going to go into too much detail about it. But I just have one request: Be. Your. Own. Person. There's nothing worse, in my eyes, then being a second-rate version of someone else. Don't try and have the same everything as someone else, just because. Follow your OWN dreams. Make your OWN life plans. God made us all individuals for a reason. 

Okay, that's my rant. Hopefully I'll try and update this more often. 
xoxo
Ciara

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Recap!

Woah! I haven't been on here in quite some time! Sorry all! School has been completely taking over my life so I'd like to recap you on what's been going on. So here it goes!

- This semester, because I am a broadcasting major, I am required to take a broadcast law class. You know, so I don't get in trouble someday basically. Well, not only is this the hardest broadcasting class that's offered here, but it's also one of the hardest course here in general. Now, the material I think is actually pretty interesting. I really don't mind going to class and learning this type of stuff. But the quizzes are just plain ridiculous. This class is solely based on 5 quizzes (we take 6 but he drops the lowest one) and 3 exams. Okay, now that I basically have explained this class, I'll get to my recap. I had quiz #5 on just this past Thursday. I studied my butt off. I walked out of there thinking I got an 8/10 because one question I just had absolutely no idea. Well, I didn't get that 8/10. So I wasn't too happy about that. Next subject!

- On Friday, I went to my friend Jordan's soccer banquet with him. This was the type of event where we dress all formally, get a free meal, and all hang out after wards. I had an absolute blast! I met some really cool people, and Jordan and I had so much fun together! Overall, fantastic evening!

- I started a new workout! Back story, I'm a HUGE runner. I ran cross country for three years in high school and was the first girl from my school to go to the State Championship meet. I absolutely adore running and it's a huge part of who I am. But, unfortunately, my body is completely shot from it. My knees are messed up, my shins hate me, and my hips are not my biggest fan. So I moved on to cycling. I was taking cycling classes at the student activity center and I LOVED it. But, I got bored. So I moved on to the Biggest Loser cardio workout. This workout is INSANE!! But I love it. I feel so great after I'm done. But with my luck, I'll probably get bored again. But we'll worry about that at a later date.

That's pretty much it! Real exciting, I know. But hopefully sometime tomorrow I'll post the Hollywire stories that I've been missing to post. Have a wonderful Sunday evening! :)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

HOLLYWIRE: Justin Bieber's 3D Film is About Chasing Your Dreams

The official trailer for Justin Bieber’s new 3D film, Never Say Never, was released just last week and fans are going crazy over it! But, Justin wants his fans to know it’s more than just a documentary-style film. It’s about chasing your dreams.


My Role Models

Here are the famous faces of television that I hope to someday just as successful as them.
Giuliana Rancic of E! News

Catt Sadler of E! News

Jason Kennedy of E! News
Ashlan Gorse of E! News

Kelly Osbourne
Hollywire's Chelsea Briggs & Katie Krause

As you can see, a lot of E! News personalities on here, but since that's my dream job, what can you expect? And I put Chelsea and Katie on here because these two, along with every, single person that's part of the Hollywire Team has been so helpful and inspiring. Incredible isn't even the word to describe the members of the team. I hope that when I get out into the entertainment world, I work for a company that's surrounded with amazing, hard working, and dedicated people like Hollywire.



Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Daily Audrey

    I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it.
-Audrey Hepburn

Lovey Dovey


You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.
- Bob Marley

Monday, November 1, 2010

What's On My Mind Today..

Have you guys ever felt like one moment might have completely ruined everything? Well, that's how I feel. I'm not going to get into the whole story but something happened over the weekend that makes me feel like a friendship that has been going on for over 10 years might have just completely come crashing down. And I feel like I'm completely helpless and nothing I say or do with fix it. Even though I don't think I'm 100% in the wrong and this other person screwed up too, I feel like the finger of blame is only pointed at me. I'm not saying that I didn't do anything wrong. Yes, maybe I did. But somebody else was at fault too.


Now, I don't think this is very fair to me at all. But I've reached this point where I don't even care anymore. I don't care what the fight was about. I don't care who did what, who said what, who didn't do this, etc. I just want my friend back. But why do I feel like this is a one sided feeling? Maybe because that's the reality. If it is, then I completely lost my best friend and the chance of our friendship being restored is falling deeper and deeper.


No matter what happens, I just want her back. But I'm not sure she feels the same.

Daily Audrey

You can always tell what kind of a person a man really thinks you are by the earrings he gives you.

HOLLYWIRE: Travie McCoy Arrested For Spray Painting The Berlin Wall!

Gym Class Heroes front man and “Billionaire” singer Travis “Travie” McCoy got into some big trouble. McCoy was arrested in Germany for spray painting the Berlin Wall!

HOLLYWIRE: Kelly Osbourne Goes Topless For Sky + HD Campaign

Kelly Osbourne is sporting a different look for the Goldfinger inspired campaign for the Sky+HD TV channel. She was painted from her head to her toes in gold body paint! 


HOLLYWIRE: Lily Allen Has Another Miscarriage

British singing sensation, Lily Allen has lost her baby after being pregnant for six months and was expected to have a baby boy. Over the weekend, the singer complained of stomach pain, according her spokesperson in a statement to The Sun. This is her second miscarriage in two and a half years.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Halloween Costumes!

Halloween is on Sunday guys! I'm a huge Halloween fan. I love getting to act like someone else for a night (or a few if you're in college like myself). So I want to know what everybody is planning on dressing up as! Here's mine:
80's style Madonna is my muse for the festive dress-up holiday. Pics will come after this crazy weekend is complete. What are you guys going as??

Daily Audrey

Paying It Forward

"Paying it forward" has to be one of the best feelings ever. That feeling of helping someone out like someone helped you, it's just such a heart-felt feeling. I had to opportunity to help a girl that I work with on the radio show get an internship at E!. I had the opportunity to take this internship about a month ago but with my school situation, which is a story in its own, I was unable to work with them. My friend called me and asked if I could give her any advice or help her out in any way. My friend Chelsea has really helped me out and actually helped me get the internship at Hollywire.com. I knew how exciting it was to be a part of the entertainment world so I really wanted to help this girl out in some way. So, I sent out an e-mail to this woman named Grace who works at E!, asking if my friend could send her resume to her. Grace was so nice and was more than willing to help her out. My friend was so excited, as was I when I had the opportunity to work with E!. 


The best part about this situation is there is not one ounce of jealously or envy that I have towards it. I think of it this way: 1. I had someone help me out and I wanted to be that person to help another, 2. she may repay me someday! What if she gets a job there and then she can help me out! haha 3. I geniunely want to see this girl succeed. She's extrememly talented and I want to see her go far.

So the sum this whole story up, my friend is currently awaiting a call from E!, which could happen today because when I sent my resume in, they called shortly after they received it. Also, if something amazing happens to you, pass it on in someway. Not only will it have that same affect on someone, but it will leave you with that warm, fuzzy feeling in your heart. And who doesn't love that?

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Words of Wisdom


No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes. It’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends- they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything- they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them- actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re going to fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.  
- Marilyn Monroe

Daily Audrey


I never think of myself as an icon. What is in other people's minds is not in my mind. I just do my thing.
-Audrey Hepburn

HOLLYWIRE: Kat Von D & Jesse James Are Stil Together!

There may have been a lot of couples splitting up lately, but Kat Von D and Jesse James are not one of them. The LA Ink star reassures everyone that they are still a happy couple. “I’m not dating Nikki [Sixx],” Kat herself told USA Today of her ex-beau. Rumors were swirling that the two had rekindled their relationship.

HOLLYWIRE: Rihanna Opens Up About Chris Brown!

It’s been over a year since Chris Brown pled guilty to assaulting his girlfriend at the time, Rihanna. Although Rihanna has kept her words to herself about what happened that post-Grammy night, she’s now opening up to readers in the December issue of Marie Claire UK (via UsMagzine.com). Check it out!

Dedicated To My Beautiful Niece, Liliana

Taylor Swift "Never Grow Up"

Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in and turn on your favorite nightlight
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have honey
If you could stay like that

(Chorus:)

Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you
Wont let no one break your heart
No one will desert you
Just try to never grow up
Never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mama's dropping you off
At 14, there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out
Someday and call your own shots

But don't make her drop you off around the block

Remember she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your PJs getting ready for school

(Chorus:)
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
No one's ever burned
Nothing's ever left you scarred
Even though you want to, just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room

Memorize what is sounded like what your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs

I just realized everything I had is someday gonna be gone
So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my nightlight on

Wish I'd never grown up

I wish I'd never grown up
Oh I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up
It could still be simple

(Chorus:)
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heat
And even through you want to, please try to never grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just never grow up

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Lovey Dovey


I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
-When Harry Met Sally

Question of the Week

Taylor Swift. Quick question for you. Are you in my mind? Serious question though guys! Why does it always seem like every song that Taylor writes, just about everybody can relate too? It's almost like she goes into your mind, picks about her thoughts, puts them together, throws some good music to it and says "Hey Ciara! I made you a little present and it's perfectly wrapped in greatness." And then when you listen to it, you're like "Hey! Wait a second! I was just thinking about why 'this person' was acting this. Thanks Taylor!" Sometimes I wondering if I should send her a thank-you note..



Maybe it has to do with her being so young -- she's 20 just so you know -- and being so super talented. Granted, she may not be the Mariah Carey of our generation, but that girl can write! She wrote her new album Speak Now completely by herself, without any co-writers or anything. That's so rare! It seems like nobody does that anymore. 

I know from personal experience that when I've had a bad day or boy issues especially, when I turn on my iPod, there's always some Swift tune that when I listen to it, my first reaction "Exactly! I know exactly what you mean, Taylor!" Now, I don't say that out loud because imagine how weird that would look walking through campus.

So my question again is, Taylor, are you reading my diary or something? I mean, I'm not complaining. Just a little curious. But you keep reading if you would like. You're helping me out more than you would think.

HOLLYWIRE: Are Mariah and Nick Expecting A Baby Boy?

Monday, October 25, 2010

Daily Audrey


My look is attainable. Women can look like Audrey Hepburn by flipping out their hair, buying the large sunglasses, and the little sleeveless dresses.
--Audrey Hepburn

HOLLYWIRE: The Buried Life Boys Take On RPatz and Depression Tonight

Now, I personally didn't write this story -- Go Chelsea! Woop Woop! -- but I just thought it was such a great article! And the fact that it's about the boys doesn't hurt either. Check it out!

HOLLYWIRE: Justin Bieber Is Coming out With A New Fragrance?

Like I mentioned in my very first post telling you guys about me, I'm currently an intern for Hollywire.com. What I wanted to do was share the stories I write for the website right here on the blog! Feel free to express your opinions because I would love to hear what you guys think!

I've been writing for the website since August so I'm just going to start with the article I wrote today. So here it is!

Weekly PSA

Anybody that knows me, knows that I'm in love with the television The Buried Life. There's just something about these four 20-something, good looking guys that captures my attention every Monday night -- and usually every other night during the week. Their humorous adventures they get themselves into keeps my entertained from beginning to end. But there's a certain part of the show that pulls at my heart strings and that's their good deeds. From Ben Nemtin's mouth "With everything we cross off on our list, we help a stranger do something on theirs." It just shows that these guys are not only ambitious and devoted, but they are thoughtful and caring as well.



Anyways, enough about my love for the show. The whole reason I brought The Buried Life up is because on tonight's episode, after they steal a lock of Twilight hunk Robert Pattinson's hair (yes, you heard me right), Ben heads to Rochester, Minnesota to help out a girl named Lexie who struggles with depression. The guys partnered up with the To Write Love On Her Arms campaign and brought awareness to the subject.

I personally have had someone very very close to me deal with depression, and it currently still dealing. It's a subject that that certain person has said, "Unless you've been through it, you won't understand." And they are right. I know me and other people have tried their absolute hardest to put themselves in that person's shoes and try and see life through their eyes. But like I said, unless you've personally dealt with it, you'll never know the extreme. 



The reason I'm writing about this is because with The Buried Life episode coming up, it's almost like it brought the subject back to my attention. Now, I'm not saying that I completely forgot about it and just decided not to care anymore. It was the type of thing that me and other certain people close to me thought that if we didn't talk about it, it would go away. And I'm tell you right now, THAT'S NOT TRUE. This is a very serious topic and while some people think that it's just someone who is basically just having a "bad day" and they'll get over it, it can be a lot more serious than that. 

If someone you know is suffering with depression, PLEASE do anything you can to help them. Show them support, show them how much you love and care for them, be there to listen to them when they need you, or maybe if they don't even want to talk. You never know, just being there could make the biggest difference.

If you, yourself, are suffering from depression, don't be afraid to reach out for help. Talk to those close to you, if you feel comfortable or the need or write thoughts and feelings down. Just know that there are people out there who love and care for you and want you be happy. They want you to love yourself, just as much as they love you. Now, I know I'm not a licensed therapist or know 100% about what I'm talking about, but I have and am in the situation where someone close to me is hurting. And I just want to help.

Inspirational Thoughts


"I knew I wouldn’t be changing the world when I decided to make a career
in entertainment television, but if I can bring a smile to your face,
help you escape what’s ailing you, force a giggle, or inspire you to buy
some killer new shoes… If I lift you up, even a little, then I have
succeeded." 
-Catt Sadler, The Daily 10

A Little About Me

The whole reason I decided to start a blog came when I was procrastinating doing my homework -- which trust me, happens A LOT -- and I was looking at different blogs floating around cyber space. My personal favorites were the ones that we're just simple. The ones that had the daily quotes that made you smile, the ones that had the quirky posts that made you laugh, the ones that had the music or movies everybody should see, and the ones that had the fashion that I just died to wear. So, that's when I decided that I wanted a little space to call my own. A space where I could write down my thoughts, my feelings, my dreams, and my experiences that came about in my day-to-day life. So, before I start exploring this world (and bare with me since I don't really know what I'm doing and my posts my be a little boring to you :) ), I want to start by introducing myself and let you, the readers, know a little bit about myself. So here it goes:

My name is Ciara and I grew up in a tiny little town in Michigan. And when I say tiny, I'm talking SUPER tiny. Want me to paint you a picture? I graduated from high school with 17 people. Got it? Okay, moving on. I'm currently a senior in college majoring in broadcast and cinematic arts with a minor in journalism. Believe me, it's a extremely fun field to go into, but also a TON of work and dedication. But since it's something I'm passionate about, all that time and effort is completely worth it in the end. I'm currently an intern for the entertainment news website Hollywire.com and I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE it!

Now, onto my dreams! I'm OBSESSED with the whole entertainment world. I love the celebrity lifestyle and everything that goes along with it. I love watching red carpet events on television, I love reading all the latest celebrity gossip and whether or not Lindsay Lohan is really going to jail or not, I love the glitz and glamour that is Hollywood. I live and breathe entertainment. Now, this may sound just a tad bit pathetic to those who don't understand, but I don't even care. It's who I am and I love that. I think it's very rare that people actually know exactly what they want to do with their life at a young age. I knew I wanted to go into entertainment broadcasting for a while now. Okay, that's enough rambling.

Now that you guys understand a little bit about me, I hope you enjoy your stay here! Again, this is my first blog and I'm still trying to figure out exactly what I want this look/be like. But I hope it's a place where I can get all my thoughts out and where you either enjoy reading what I have to say or you can relate to me in some small way. :)