Be Your Own Person

Wow, I haven't been on here in a long time. But I desperately need to get some thoughts out. So here it goes...

Have you ever felt like somebody was in your shadow? Like no matter what you do in your life, somebody is always a few steps behind you doing the exact same thing? Right now, that's how I'm feeling. I know it's stupid and may sound a little selfish, but I can't help it. It's one of my biggest pet peeves. When you have something going on in your life and somebody is always right there wanting the same thing -- even though they never once showed any desire for that dream -- and you felt like you can't say anything to them. 

I'm not going to go into too much detail about it. But I just have one request: Be. Your. Own. Person. There's nothing worse, in my eyes, then being a second-rate version of someone else. Don't try and have the same everything as someone else, just because. Follow your OWN dreams. Make your OWN life plans. God made us all individuals for a reason. 

Okay, that's my rant. Hopefully I'll try and update this more often. 

xoxo

Ciara

Recap!

Woah! I haven't been on here in quite some time! Sorry all! School has been completely taking over my life so I'd like to recap you on what's been going on. So here it goes!

- This semester, because I am a broadcasting major, I am required to take a broadcast law class. You know, so I don't get in trouble someday basically. Well, not only is this the hardest broadcasting class that's offered here, but it's also one of the hardest course here in general. Now, the material I think is actually pretty interesting. I really don't mind going to class and learning this type of stuff. But the quizzes are just plain ridiculous. This class is solely based on 5 quizzes (we take 6 but he drops the lowest one) and 3 exams. Okay, now that I basically have explained this class, I'll get to my recap. I had quiz #5 on just this past Thursday. I studied my butt off. I walked out of there thinking I got an 8/10 because one question I just had absolutely no idea. Well, I didn't get that 8/10. So I wasn't too happy about that. Next subject!

- On Friday, I went to my friend Jordan's soccer banquet with him. This was the type of event where we dress all formally, get a free meal, and all hang out after wards. I had an absolute blast! I met some really cool people, and Jordan and I had so much fun together! Overall, fantastic evening!

- I started a new workout! Back story, I'm a HUGE runner. I ran cross country for three years in high school and was the first girl from my school to go to the State Championship meet. I absolutely adore running and it's a huge part of who I am. But, unfortunately, my body is completely shot from it. My knees are messed up, my shins hate me, and my hips are not my biggest fan. So I moved on to cycling. I was taking cycling classes at the student activity center and I LOVED it. But, I got bored. So I moved on to the Biggest Loser cardio workout. This workout is INSANE!! But I love it. I feel so great after I'm done. But with my luck, I'll probably get bored again. But we'll worry about that at a later date.

That's pretty much it! Real exciting, I know. But hopefully sometime tomorrow I'll post the Hollywire stories that I've been missing to post. Have a wonderful Sunday evening! :)

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My Role Models

Here are the famous faces of television that I hope to someday just as successful as them.

Giuliana Rancic of E! News

Catt Sadler of E! News

Jason Kennedy of E! News

Ashlan Gorse of E! News

Kelly Osbourne

Hollywire's Chelsea Briggs & Katie Krause

As you can see, a lot of E! News personalities on here, but since that's my dream job, what can you expect? And I put Chelsea and Katie on here because these two, along with every, single person that's part of the Hollywire Team has been so helpful and inspiring. Incredible isn't even the word to describe the members of the team. I hope that when I get out into the entertainment world, I work for a company that's surrounded with amazing, hard working, and dedicated people like Hollywire.

Daily Audrey

    I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it.

-Audrey Hepburn

Lovey Dovey

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.

- Bob Marley

What's On My Mind Today..

Have you guys ever felt like one moment might have completely ruined everything? Well, that's how I feel. I'm not going to get into the whole story but something happened over the weekend that makes me feel like a friendship that has been going on for over 10 years might have just completely come crashing down. And I feel like I'm completely helpless and nothing I say or do with fix it. Even though I don't think I'm 100% in the wrong and this other person screwed up too, I feel like the finger of blame is only pointed at me. I'm not saying that I didn't do anything wrong. Yes, maybe I did. But somebody else was at fault too.

Now, I don't think this is very fair to me at all. But I've reached this point where I don't even care anymore. I don't care what the fight was about. I don't care who did what, who said what, who didn't do this, etc. I just want my friend back. But why do I feel like this is a one sided feeling? Maybe because that's the reality. If it is, then I completely lost my best friend and the chance of our friendship being restored is falling deeper and deeper.

No matter what happens, I just want her back. But I'm not sure she feels the same.